One month ago today, I went under the knife.
As I detailed in my last post, my doctor discovered a sizable mass on my right ovary in November. This mass was not present during my pregnancy with Han, and there were some other concerning characteristics that contributed to my doctor advising surgery to remove it immediately.
Two weeks before my surgery, an elder in our church prophesied over me. She told me she had been praying for my healing and that Father told her the mass was already gone.
Now I love and trust this woman dearly, and I fully believe that God speaks through prophecy and performs miraculous healings today, except in that moment. In that moment, all I could do was think, “Yeah right.”
I was bracing myself. I was doing everything I could emotionally and mentally to prepare to have cancer at 29 years of age. I was choosing to accept fear and what I thought was realistic expectations over the good news the Lord was delivering to me.
And guess what happened?
I went in for surgery, and my doctor found NOTHING. That’s right. The mass was gone. Just like I had already been told. No mass. No threat of cancer or reproductive problems. I was divinely and miraculously healed.
I think I live in a place where I sometimes do not really believe what I say I believe. But I would like to think of this experience as a springboard for giving God total control over my life.
If I actually believe every believer is given spiritual gifts (1 Peter 4:10), than I’m going to pray for an opportunity to use the gifts that I know God has given me.
If I actually believe God can stir up and strengthen my gifts by the laying on of hands (2 Timothy 1:6), I’m going to ask other pastors, elders, and friends to pray that the gifts are strengthened and used to the fullest.
If I believe that prophecy is a superior gift (1 Corinthians 14:1), then I will pray to receive it.
But ascribing to a few new beliefs is not the point. The point is to fully walk in my identity as a child of God and in revelatory knowledge that He is a good, good Father.
Ephesians chapter 1 is great place to start reading if you want to know more about your identity as a believer in Christ. That one chapter is crazy, beautiful, scary, and so full of way-out-there truth, it is almost mind-blowing to me that so many who profess Christ have settled for simple prayers at the dinner table and a church service or two during the week.
Our Father has blessed us with every spiritual blessing.
Our Father adopted us into His family.
We have an inheritance with Christ.
We have been given the same power that raised Christ Jesus from the dead.
All of our heads should explode right now with excitement. But what now?
Life with Christ is about Kingdom here until Kingdom there. One day we will be united with Him in heaven, but until then He extends this invitation for us to bring heaven here. There are things that are currently on this earth that will not be in heaven. Depression, sickness, disease, jealousy, homelessness, despair, greed, sorrow, anxiety, and death have no place in heaven. So we get to work with our Father to bring the things of heaven to everyone around us. We carry hope, healing, contentment, belonging, joy, generosity, kindness, peace, and life. We get to be dual citizens, because while we are physically here on this earth, we are also seated in heavenly places (Ephesians 2:6).
So as I think about 2015, I resolve to co-labor with Christ, bringing light and life into the darkness around us. And I pray that you also accept the invitation to join this crazy, spirit-filled adventure.